knitting and the life I almost have around it

Wednesday, April 05, 2006


Ok, my life has completely collapsed upon itself and i'm left standing here clutching my knitting bag wondering how everything got so insane. i dont really know where my head is right now, and there is no way i am going to blacken my name further by airing dirty laundry online. But i have to say, i am very very very sorry to the person i have hurt. I have barely been able to eat a thing in 4 days or even sleep and you have to know i care very much about you. Nothing i have done was meant to hurt you but i have to do what makes me happy and well. I think in time you will understand why i had to do this, but until then i hope you know me well enough to know i am an honest and sensitive person and i wouldnt have done this without good reason.

that said, i am now going to go and try to sleep for a couple of hours before i leave. I'm ok. i have been better, but i'll live. don't miss me too much at SnB and i'll try to think of you all once or twice as i lie on tropical beaches with my favourite books. You have no idea how much i need a holiday and to escape everything for a little while. When did life become so complicated?? Why does my reaction to stress have to be a desire to throw-up? not that i do, but feeling like you will for long periods of time is worse.

anyway, apologies for being cryptic, see you all in a week.

from the soon-to-be-saner
Ms Spider


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